Friends are there to help you

Without my friends, I don't know where I would be today. Without my friends I would be sitting here, pondering what to do with my life and having no-one to discuss it with. I wasn't sure what to write about this week, but I decided to write about my friends. These three are the greatest friends I could ever ask for, and have helped me through many problems and bumps in the almost 2 years that I have known them. They are incredible people who are now, a part of my family. 

First up, there's Georgia. We met on the first day of school in year 9 in our tutor group. We formed an unlikely bond while playing games on her iPad mini. She is a great person who is always good for fun, pizza and people dying in movies. You are a great friend Georgia. You're fun to be around, and although you can be quiet, that's what makes you unique in my group of friends. 

Then there's Ryan. I remember seeing him into social studies on my first day at high school and thinking 'he looks like a stoner' (sorry Ryan :P). We too bonded over games and after having played 'Gang Beasts' and 'Super Mario Bros' I felt like he was my first actual friend at high school. You're a great mate Ryan. I always enjoyed having you over and us playing video games until some ridiculous hour of the morning. You are a bit of a loony like me and I think this is one of the many reasons we bonded so well. You are the only guy-friend that I have, you are my best guy friend. You're the man Ryan. 

Thirdly, there's Fenella. I bonded with Fenella only in term 2 after we started taking piano lessons together and realised that our piano teacher looked like a goldfish which I'll admit, I nearly choked, laughing so hard about it. We talked sometimes, and didn't really become good friends until at the end of last year when I invited my friends all to come bowling with me. You're a funny person Fenella, you have a quirky personality and you're always down for a good talk. You always make me smile and continue to be a great friend. 

Oh, I nearly forgot. 

How could I forget?!?!?

Lastly, there's Jordyn. 

I can't actually remember quite how we became friends but I have distinct feeling it happened after you let me copy your work in science and bought me food at the canteen. You are a amazing person Jordyn, you are always keen to pitch in and help people and I think somehow, you saw that I needed help getting friends, so you became one yourself. You're a chill person and it's good to have you as a friend. 

These people have built me up. They have cemented my life in solid foundations and they have been supportive friends the whole way. Georgia, Fenella, Ryan and Jordyn, you are the best friends I could ever ask for and I wouldn't trade you for anyone. 

Love you guys,

Death is a new viewpoint on life

Hope that title doesn't sound too dark. 

I fell into an exsistential crisis yesterday. I was thinking I wonder what happens after death and I wondered to hard and thought maybe there is no heaven and maybe our afterlife is just eternal blackness. And then that got me worried 'I WANNA SEE THIS WORLD FLOURISH AND GROW etc.' and then I went to deep and thought what if our entire existence is meaningless and we're just here to live, repopulate and die. And I thought 'why are we here at this moment and time? Do we have something we have to live up to?' It made me feel waaaay too tripped about life but it also made me think, 'what if there is life after death? Would we go back as another person and start life all over again? If so, would we still have memories of our past life/lives? Things like this make everything I think about go fuzzy and I fall into a void of thought. It leaves me bewildered and amazed at what is capable with the brain.